Run streak and a little bit of my spirit... broken :( At work today, finishing up my last client, and I get a phone call. "Are you at work? Can you leave?", "Why, what's wrong?", "I need my insurance cards, I need to go to urgent care and get stitches". Always a good way to end the work day. So I rushed home to get the insurance cards and my boyfriend and head to urgent care. I learned something I didn't know about myself, I'm not good under stressful situations that involve someone I care about being hurt.
This worries me for several reasons. First and foremost being, how the hell am I going to be able to handle having a hurt child. I would be a mess. Here sits my boyfriend in front of me, a full grown adult, leg bandaged and looking likes he about to pass out and I'm just trying not to cry. I tried to keep it together and not panic him any further because he was already pale as I've ever seen him and acting strangely. As much as I love him with all my heart I can only imagine how I would feel if that was my child and I was helpless.
Urgent care sent us to the Emergency room at Providence and 8 stitches and 3 hours later we were on our way home. Not to mention a stop to get food and antibiotic pills, and before you know it, it's passed closing time at the gym. My 10 day run streak will remain just that, 10 days :( Of course I'm going to start over tomorrow but I was so dedicated to nothing stopping me!
Let down a bit, exhausted, and not looking forward to working for the 6th day in row tomorrow morning. A womans work is never done. Hoping to feel more encouraged and rested tomorrow.
I am a hairstylist who works at 2 salons and does a lot of freelance work. I am 1 of 2 aunts to a 6 year old boy who I learn from daily. I love to create... art, hair, fashion, food, fitness. I strive for balanace and am always looking for love and inspiration everywhere!
Saturday, December 8, 2012
Friday, December 7, 2012
DONT JUDGE! :)
Everyone judges, subconsciously even. You can't say you don't judge because you'd be lying. We all make assumptions about people based on their appearance or behavior. Just some food for thought though...
Before you call me fat/skinny depending on your P.O.V. let me tell you how I love my body for what it does, wheres its been, how far its come, and not what it looks like. Before you call me lazy for taking every chance to sit down, let me tell you how I work on my feet all day at 2 jobs and then go home to take care of my family and go to the gym to run everyday. Before you judge me for eating something that's unhealthy and decide I must be throwing up after, consider that I make 95% of everything I eat and that's the other 5%. I workout so hard that occasionally I deserve some indulgence. Before you say, "Look how hard shes trying with her perfect hair, makeup and outfit...insecure", let me tell you how presentation is a majority of the reason that new clients come to me at my salon. People chose a stylist based on their style. Before you say, "Look at her hair, it's a mess, and she's a hairstylist?!", consider how much hair I've done on any given day. Do you want to work when you are off the clock? Before you think, "Uncultured American" let me tell you about how I've been to places in Eastern Europe that you've only heard about on the news. Before you say "That's what happens when you get married at 22" when I tell you I am divorced, ask me how my husband and I were told we would have to live in separate countries for 10 years before we could be together again. Before you ask me "Of all places, you want to visit New Jersey!?" ask me about the 15 year old girl that I donated bone marrow to so that she could survive, and ask me where she lives. Before you look down on me for not having a college degree, consider that I gave up summers during high school just so I could graduate beauty school and high school at the same time and start my career when you were applying for colleges and loans. Ten years later which one of us has a thriving career and which one of us can't find a job and is in debt up to their eyeballs?
I'm not saying I don't judge because obviously I do, we all do. But when you think those things, stop and consider that you are judging a person, fighting their own demons, with a story and a life all their own that you have no idea about.
Before you call me fat/skinny depending on your P.O.V. let me tell you how I love my body for what it does, wheres its been, how far its come, and not what it looks like. Before you call me lazy for taking every chance to sit down, let me tell you how I work on my feet all day at 2 jobs and then go home to take care of my family and go to the gym to run everyday. Before you judge me for eating something that's unhealthy and decide I must be throwing up after, consider that I make 95% of everything I eat and that's the other 5%. I workout so hard that occasionally I deserve some indulgence. Before you say, "Look how hard shes trying with her perfect hair, makeup and outfit...insecure", let me tell you how presentation is a majority of the reason that new clients come to me at my salon. People chose a stylist based on their style. Before you say, "Look at her hair, it's a mess, and she's a hairstylist?!", consider how much hair I've done on any given day. Do you want to work when you are off the clock? Before you think, "Uncultured American" let me tell you about how I've been to places in Eastern Europe that you've only heard about on the news. Before you say "That's what happens when you get married at 22" when I tell you I am divorced, ask me how my husband and I were told we would have to live in separate countries for 10 years before we could be together again. Before you ask me "Of all places, you want to visit New Jersey!?" ask me about the 15 year old girl that I donated bone marrow to so that she could survive, and ask me where she lives. Before you look down on me for not having a college degree, consider that I gave up summers during high school just so I could graduate beauty school and high school at the same time and start my career when you were applying for colleges and loans. Ten years later which one of us has a thriving career and which one of us can't find a job and is in debt up to their eyeballs?
I'm not saying I don't judge because obviously I do, we all do. But when you think those things, stop and consider that you are judging a person, fighting their own demons, with a story and a life all their own that you have no idea about.
Thursday, December 6, 2012
Optimistic tho exhausted
Today is 9 days straight of running and I'm exhausted! First week total is 13.37. I haven't quite hit the "exercise gives you energy" point yet but it is getting easier. It's easy on my breathing and heart rate, its my calves that I'm worried about. 28 days is a long time to go without a break. Been eating clean tho as a result of all of this. I'm so happy that I have the time to be able to make completing this challenge a reality. I figure if I can run 28 days straight in my busiest time of the year then I have no excuse at any other point.
I've always struggled with the fact that I don't work as many hours as most people. Always looked at it as some sort of failure like I'm not a good enough hair stylist to be busy all the time even having been in this business for 10 years. Now I'm starting to consider that maybe I'm looking at it all wrong. I make enough to support myself and still have enough for entertainment or getting something fun every now and then. Isn't what I'm doing, what everyone else dreams of doing? I work a job I love doing everyday, I make great money, I make my own hours and I still get to choose when I want to work and when I can take a few hours here or there to make the rest of my life balance. Maybe I am way richer and successful than I've considered.
"We can complain because rose bushes have thorns or rejoice because thorn bushes have roses"
A. Lincoln
I've always struggled with the fact that I don't work as many hours as most people. Always looked at it as some sort of failure like I'm not a good enough hair stylist to be busy all the time even having been in this business for 10 years. Now I'm starting to consider that maybe I'm looking at it all wrong. I make enough to support myself and still have enough for entertainment or getting something fun every now and then. Isn't what I'm doing, what everyone else dreams of doing? I work a job I love doing everyday, I make great money, I make my own hours and I still get to choose when I want to work and when I can take a few hours here or there to make the rest of my life balance. Maybe I am way richer and successful than I've considered.
"We can complain because rose bushes have thorns or rejoice because thorn bushes have roses"
A. Lincoln
Monday, December 3, 2012
Healthy Balance :)
I wanted to keep moving after my last post so instead of taking a nap I made vegetarian chili! It was my first attempt and it was awesome!!! Heres what I used, if you actually wanna know how to make it leave a comment and I'll detail it out.
Today I got my run in, got my laundry done, spent some quality time learning to play NHL 13, finished nearly all of my Christmas shopping, and put together all of my food for tomorrow. I've realized that putting things together ahead of time, and cooking everything ahead of time, really is the best way to stay on track. I still have all the chili I made yesterday so I used it to make quick protein packed nachos today, easy! I also boiled a bunch of broccoli and corn on the cob for easy snacking and putting things together. There is now all of that ready in my fridge, along with fresh spinach for salads, 2 dozen organic brown eggs for protein rich quick breakfast making, and omega-3 silk soy milk. I may sound like a hippie but it makes me feel better, I sleep better, I function better, and I have tons of energy! After proof reading that sentence I'm very proud of the fact that it had nothing to do with "what it makes me look like". All of those things are so important to me and being able to lead the lifestyle I want to live. Being a healthy weight is just an added benefit, and being able to wear whatever is in style at the moment is awesome! I don't understand why it's always so "skinny" driven. Just be healthy, enjoy life, enjoy the things you love, indulge in moderation, and everything falls into place :)
Today I got my run in, got my laundry done, spent some quality time learning to play NHL 13, finished nearly all of my Christmas shopping, and put together all of my food for tomorrow. I've realized that putting things together ahead of time, and cooking everything ahead of time, really is the best way to stay on track. I still have all the chili I made yesterday so I used it to make quick protein packed nachos today, easy! I also boiled a bunch of broccoli and corn on the cob for easy snacking and putting things together. There is now all of that ready in my fridge, along with fresh spinach for salads, 2 dozen organic brown eggs for protein rich quick breakfast making, and omega-3 silk soy milk. I may sound like a hippie but it makes me feel better, I sleep better, I function better, and I have tons of energy! After proof reading that sentence I'm very proud of the fact that it had nothing to do with "what it makes me look like". All of those things are so important to me and being able to lead the lifestyle I want to live. Being a healthy weight is just an added benefit, and being able to wear whatever is in style at the moment is awesome! I don't understand why it's always so "skinny" driven. Just be healthy, enjoy life, enjoy the things you love, indulge in moderation, and everything falls into place :)
Sunday, December 2, 2012
Takin care of business!!!
Why do I feel like days off end up being more work? Its Sunday, my day off, and I woke up early to leave my cozy nestled spot to come home and work. All in all a productive day. Got to create some things :) Got a chance to make good on my daily run challenge...
Not too shabby. It was nice and I should've run outside but my calves are still adjusting to constant mileage and I figured they would appreciate a little more treadmill time. Came home from the gym and had a little Elvis snack... Peanut butter and bananas with honey on whole wheat flat bread, sweet and salty, yum! Good little post run snack...
And then it was back to work. Seems to be the biggest privilege of working at home, being able to go for a run, rinse off and get right back at it. I didn't have to worry about hair, makeup, jewelry, getting dressed, commuting time, etc. And then of course theres always the plus side of getting to do fun hair on friends...
Tj wanted a hightop fade like the one Kid Rock used to wear when he started DJing. Oh Tj, always good for a laugh and making me smile. A busy day and its only 4 o'clock. What to do, what to do...
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